Archive | April, 2011

Word Play (3WW): Death Wish

27 Apr

Only mobsters came here. The boardwalk smelled like dead fish, a scent that clung to the salty air with enough vigor to assault the senses. Water crashed against the pier, occasionally spitting up flecks of foam from the slate waters below. The boards were a slimy shade of green that alternated between sodden pulp and salt-petrified stone; they groaned at the lightest touch and rattled with the waves roaring in from a dead ocean that stretched to eternity.

Walter skirted a collapsed section of boards where caution tape snapped in the breeze. Falling through meant a tedious death trapped among metal scraps that still washed up years after the bombings stopped. He’d seen recovery teams sifting through the wreckage below, uncovering bodies that had drowned as the tide came in or slowly bled to death, unable to scream for help because of the disulphide toxins in the water. Ever since his father’s father had worked for the Family, this desolate stretch of coastline had been the ideal spot for people to “accidentally” disappear.

He saw the man waiting by the decrepit shrimp shack down the walk and headed to meet the contact. The only reason to be here was business. Business was crime. Crime was lucrative, and money spun the world on its axis. If Walter thought about it long enough, he could conclude there to be a million benefits to being a hit man and no downsides. He didn’t relish murder, but he saw its usefulness when paying for his children’s school tuition.

The men regarded each other from a cautious distance.  They wore identical gray longcoats over worn suits and shoes that used to shine.  It wasn’t a style.  It was a uniform that identified the legions of beleaguered warriors as they drank in the dimmest corners of seedy establishments across the city.

“Good morning,” said Walter, pulling a pack of Silver Arches from his breast pocket.  He offered one to the other man before lighting his own.

“Walter Passos,” the contact said, sounding impressed.  “Not as prolific as your grandfather but still talked about… you’re younger than I expected.”

Walter’s eyes narrowed.  Not many people were allowed knowledge of his lineage.  Being a descendant of the most famous hit man on the eastern seaboard wasn’t something to announce in this line of work.  Only his boss and the police lieutenant knew, and he’d been paid off.  This was a setup, a family vendetta from the old days.

The silver barrel of the gun loomed in his face.  He flicked his cigarette butt and watched it disappear between the wooden slats in resignation. Ever since his father’s father… This city was a place of death, a world where there was no mercy.

“I’m protected,” warned Walter.    “Do you have a death wish?”

“In this place, don’t we all?” the man asked simply.

I’ll take that as a yes.  Walter closed his eyes, unable to stop the flinch that accompanied the crack of the gunshots.  He stumbled backward and sagged to his knees as the man disappeared into the abandoned storefront.  He thought to call for help but, even if the boardwalk hadn’t been deserted, nobody would be foolish enough to help.

The wound was fatal.  His lungs rattled, maracas made of bullet and flesh.  He slumped against the building, amazed at how metallic his blood tasted.

3WW: Swing Set

21 Apr

The swing glides through purple twilight, slicing air like butter.  Its chains are well-oiled, its rubber seat weathered but not worn.  The chains are set too high for her feet to brush the mulched ground beneath, and she smiles.  The swing moves like a pendulum, unwavering, resolute and in time with her heartbeat.

This is not the only swing set.  It is not the closest swing set.  It is not even the best swing set, but it is the one she returns to in the evenings when the sun has gone and the moon not yet risen.  It is here that she sits, listening to children playing a block over and the slow crunch of tire on gray asphalt down the road.

A dog parks down the block.  Children rumble on their Little Tyke tricycles.  Motorcycle engines roar on the highway.  Eighteen-wheelers scream across the interstate overpass, audible from miles away.  A helicopter chops through the night. The noises melt and mingle with each other on the edge of her mind.

She visits because, of all the playgrounds in the city, this quaint section of land is the only one that can cleanse her mind of its troubles.  It opens into an older, sprawling neighborhood of modest houses.  Tall trees create a distant border that gives the paradoxical illusion of enclosed and open space all at once.  A walking path runs behind it, but no one bothers to stop because there are farther, prettier places to visit and not enough hours in a day.  Unlike newer developments, the moist air here smells too complex to have come from a garden center.

She can admire this neighborhood and the characters it must hold.  Each house is unique, painted and shaped as if an artisan had kneaded it from clay.  He must have worked years to form that weeded garden and battered screen door.  That shed next door, stacked high with tools and a retrofitted door, could only have from careful study.

It is a neighborhood crafted by time and the razor-like cut of her pendulum swing.

Lucid Dreaming: Step 1

20 Apr

They say that there are stages to lucid dreaming.  Like anything worthwhile, lucid dreaming must come as a result of training and mental preparation.

God help me.  This is going to involve effort.

Step One:  Research

Why does everything boil down to research?  Is it because the world is now, literally, at our fingertips, or have we just made an intimidating name for something that should sound much more fun?  Maybe we should call research “Internet adventure time” instead.  That is the implication of a search engine, after all.

Lucid dreams have been around long before the fancy modern name.  You can see it in the biblical story of Jacob and the Ladder and as a part of Asian philosophy (they have a yoga devoted to it).  Long before it had any sort of scientific credibility, people were controlling their dream experiences.  People probably thought it was witchcraft at some point… I assume several people were executed in connection with it.

The concept of lucid dreaming is pretty cool.  You go to sleep in your bed, and you wake up inside a dream.  That could be a beach, your living room or a shuttle station on a space colony.  Once you are lucid inside the dream, you can control what happens to you in your environment.  If you want to practice violin, rosin that bow!  Artists, get out that easel and get to work!  Golfers, work on your swing!

Plans C, A, D and B

Basically, I have several options to induce lucid dreams.  I can meditate myself into a lucid dream state, which I thought would take more concentration than an entire semester’s worth of meditation condensed. This option is set aside as Plan C.

Or, I could go with Plan A.  I will learn to trigger a “wake up” moment in my dreams.  The “wake up” moment is when you realize that something is wrong with the dream around you.  I make a comparison here with the “ah ha!” moment, which is more akin to discovering the word that defeats writers’ block or understanding a mathematical concept after an intense three-hour study session.


There are some contradictions between dreams and reality, so the best way to trigger a “wake up” moment is to practice them and constantly ask yourself “Am I Awake?”.  Here are some daily reality checks:

  • Look in the mirror.  Are you blurry, lumpy, grainy, fuzzy or otherwise distorted?  If so, you either need to clear your eye boogers or wake up. Right now!
  • Check your watch, note time, check your watch again. Did the time jump forward by an absurd increment?  We all know that time ebbs and flows in dreams, so unless you’re a stoner or have narcolepsy, time in real life should be constant.  I’m not talking “let’s check the atomic clock” or suggesting we learn theories of relativity; just look at the wall clock.
  • Can you hold your breath and still breathe?  In real life, no.  But you can induce a nosebleed.  Be careful.
  • Read a book.  No, seriously.  Read words, look away and then read them again.  If they’ve changed or become jumbled you’re dreaming.  Dyslexics need not apply.
  • Make sure you have all ten digits.  In dreams you often lose or gain fingers and toes on a whim.  Disgusting, especially if you hate toes.
  • Jump around!  I’m not going to try this one because nothing except helicopters, bugs and robots fly in my dreams.  The idea of human flight is just silly.  Who am I, Icarus?
  • Pinch yourself.  No, not really.  This doesn’t actually work, but it’s a common rumor.  Besides, why would you want to pinch yourself when everyone knows the intense physical sensations that can accompany dreams?  I’m calling shenanigans on this one.
  • Does the lighting change when you turn on the lights?  No?  Oh buddy, you’re screwed.

There are other methods, of course.  I could “wake back to bed,” which requires setting my alarm clock for 4 – 7 hours after falling asleep.  When I supposedly wake up (because I would never just shut off my alarm), I need to spend a full hour thinking, meditating and researching lucidity.  Then, I go back to sleep.  If possible, I’d make this my Plan D simply because it requires me to get up at 3 a.m. and think.

I could keep a dream journal and write down everything I remember as soon as I wake up.  This will help me remember odd scenarios, make my dreams more vivid and make me more likely to call out any dream antics the next night.  I would call this my Plan B except I already do this.  It’s called  Twitter, folks.

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